As the year comes to an end; I’ve decided to take the time and devote my last post of 2017 to the journey that has brought me here and all the experiences I had along the way. I figured this would be the best way to finally get all of those thoughts out of my head. This past year was certainly full of both tears and laughter, lots of joy and some pain, and even love. The way 2017 started was certainly not the ideal as I watched someone I love lose someone they love. Sitting by watching someone try to remain strong is the worst. There is nothing you can do or say to help ease the pain or make the healing time go by faster. You never think that the last time you get see someone or speak to them, it’s going to be thee last time; It’s heartbreaking.
This year I turned 24 and got to spend my birthday in Atlanta for the first time with some amazing people! Considering I was going through my last days of employment with my last job, that vacation couldn’t have come at a better time. It felt so good being away from that hell hole! It was so good that two days after returning I decided to cut my two weeks short and just leave. No f*cks given! By the way, karma catches up with you sooner or later and the person who was making my time there a living hell ended up getting fired. I found that to be quite interesting. However, I would never go back to that place, whether she’s there or not. Moving on.
Something else that surprisingly happened for me is, “the woman who loves single,” became “the woman who tried out a relationship”. Two words, big fail. I won’t say it was a waste of time, however it did teach me a valuable lesson. Good things take time and if it isn’t meant to be let it go! Another take away from my brief relationship stint was DO NOT RUSH! That was a big part of why it didn’t work out, besides some other things. Lucky for him, the Jackiee I am today won’t allow me to be bashful or rude. However, that relationship made me stronger. It made me realize my worth, made me realize things I won’t accept and most importantly things I don’t need. I had to take it as a lesson learned, nothing more nothing less. Back to being the woman who loves single.
On a happier note, I met some wonderful people this year; I interviewed for some amazing companies and I hit my one year mark on Wanderous Warrior. I went to the cabins with an awesome group of friends; and I opened up to others and let them in which is something I rarely do, yet I am glad I did. I took a guy out on a date for the first time and paid for the entire thing, best date ever btw! Lastly, I learned that even when sparks fly not all flames burn forever. I can honestly say of all things experienced this year, those were certainly most enjoyed. They say a lot can happen in a year and they’re right. Some of the things that I would have said or done a year ago, are not the things I would do today and I am extremely proud of that. Growth; something we all look for yet not have completely mastered. I removed some toxic people from my circle and I changed some habits without losing myself or disturbing my peace. I also lost it a few times but I didn’t go insane.
I got hurt a bit, but it didn’t break me; and I fell a few times but I got back up stronger. Life truly does go on. I found someone who I thought was the one but later discovered he may be just a really amazing friend instead. You never know what life has in store for you but I am appreciative of all it has given me. This year has certainly changed me in more ways than one but I am so ready for it to be over. I know things won’t change overnight, but I do know they will in due time. I pray that this new year doesn’t swallow me whole or allow anything to hold me back. I pray that I continue to move forward and those around me continue to do the same.
Someone once told me even number years can bring you a lot of luck. I am not sure how true this may be, however I am going to put that out into the universe and let God do his thing!